I deeply regret the family dynamics I created for my daughters. This is a poem about my regret.
When I look back to see, what I regret,
it's the void I gave my children, that one need that wasn't met.
That hurting in my soul, never ceases to ache,
because a mom's supposed to give, she's not supposed to take.
I thought I was having fun, and just filling a need,
but now it's so clear, it was nothing but greed.
And now after the fact, when I saw the consequences unfold,
I see what I've done, and grief I still hold.
I pray all the time, for my girls to be,
walking with the Lord, and smarter than me.
If I would have known, it would unfold like this,
I would have done thing's right, so a father they wouldn't miss.
But now I pray, with all of my heart,
they would have a complete family, not one that's torn apart.
I know I'm forgiven, my sins are taken away,
but there are consequences, that I still see to this day.
Please Lord, it wasn't their fault, I pray You would bring,
this dynamic to a halt.
Will You please let their families, reside with a mom and dad,
a dynamic I deprived them of, a dynamic they've never had.
And I pray they would love You, with all of their hearts,
and that You would bind their homes,
so it will never fall apart.
1 Corinthians 13:1-8
[1] Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal. [2] And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not charity, I am nothing. [3] And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing. [4] Charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, [5] Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; [6] Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; [7] Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. 8 Charity never faileth....
My prayer is that I will love better for the second half of my life!
When I look back to see, what I regret,
it's the void I gave my children, that one need that wasn't met.
That hurting in my soul, never ceases to ache,
because a mom's supposed to give, she's not supposed to take.
I thought I was having fun, and just filling a need,
but now it's so clear, it was nothing but greed.
And now after the fact, when I saw the consequences unfold,
I see what I've done, and grief I still hold.
I pray all the time, for my girls to be,
walking with the Lord, and smarter than me.
If I would have known, it would unfold like this,
I would have done thing's right, so a father they wouldn't miss.
But now I pray, with all of my heart,
they would have a complete family, not one that's torn apart.
I know I'm forgiven, my sins are taken away,
but there are consequences, that I still see to this day.
Please Lord, it wasn't their fault, I pray You would bring,
this dynamic to a halt.
Will You please let their families, reside with a mom and dad,
a dynamic I deprived them of, a dynamic they've never had.
And I pray they would love You, with all of their hearts,
and that You would bind their homes,
so it will never fall apart.
1 Corinthians 13:1-8
[1] Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal. [2] And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not charity, I am nothing. [3] And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing. [4] Charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, [5] Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; [6] Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; [7] Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. 8 Charity never faileth....
My prayer is that I will love better for the second half of my life!
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