Help Me Lord

On this earth I want to finish well. This poem is about this desire.


Lord I'm thankful for your lessons, even though it's hard,
I know your making sure, that it's self I discard.
Your always showing me, how to die to self,
and to not hold on to here, but to seek eternal wealth.(Matthew 6-19-21)
Everything I see, will come and go,
it's how I lived my life, is what I know I'll have to show.
How I spend my life, everyday, is the story I'll have to bring,
on judgment day. (2 Corinthians 5:6-10)
Will you be disappointed, or will you be proud,
will you be ashamed of me, when you come down on the cloud. (Luke 9:26)
I know by faith in you, and by turning from my sins,
that when I die, eternal life with you begins. (Ephesians 2:8-9)
But on this earth, before I leave,
I want to try really hard, not to make you grieve.
Nothing in my life, I want allowed,
that would cause you displeasure, that would make you not proud.
I know I'm sealed, for the day of redemption, (Ephesians 4:30-32)
but please lead me not, into temptation. (Matthew 26:41)
Will you help my faith, and have my worries eased, (Mark 9:23-24,Matthew 6:25, 1 Peter 5:7)
because if I shrink back, I know you won't be pleased. (Hebrews 10:38)
Whatever was my profit, I now consider loss, (Philippians 3:7-8)
all I want is you, and to take up my cross. (Luke 9:23-25)
I need your help, from now until my death,
will you help me finish well, till I take my last breath. (Jude 1:24-25)

2 Corinthians 5:6-10
[6] Therefore we are always confident, knowing that, whilst we are at home in the body, we are absent from the Lord: [7] (For we walk by faith, not by sight:) [8] We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord. [9] Wherefore we labour, that, whether present or absent, we may be accepted of him. [10] For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, that every one may receive the things done in his body, according to that he hath done, whether it be good or bad.

Wisdom Makes Me Strong

I wrote this during a battle that totally caught me off guard. I thought I was over this type of temptation. I thought wrong.

When something yells at me, to come off my path,
I think back, and then do the math.
There's so many times that I fell,
because I thought I chose heaven, but really it was hell.
Now when wisdom, calls out in the street,
she's the one, that I want to meet. (proverbs 1:20-23, Psalm 119:105)
My tempters words I admit do tickle,
but I have to remember, people are fickle.
God can be trusted, He stays the same, (Hebrews 13:8, Numbers 23:19-20)
His love is real, His love is not a game.
Will I believe the deception, that whispers in my ears? (2Timothy 4:3)
Or remember the pain, of so many years.
Do I really want another fate,
from the same apple that I ate? (Proverbs 26:11)
When I hated logic and loved to feel,
I found out, it wasn't a good deal.
Feelings are deceptive, logic is a fact,
so logic and I made a pact.
I know you are true, my consequences prove it,
when feelings come up, let's help each other remove it.
Feelings is an indicator, not a resolution,
I'm feeling something again logic, what's the solution?
Set aside what your feeling, check Gods word,
pick up your armor and put on your gird. (James 4:7-8, Ephesians 6:10-17)
Feelings are weak, wisdom makes you strong,
apply Gods word, and you'll never go wrong. (Proverbs 30:5, Hebrews 4:12)

1 Peter 5:8-10
[8] Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: [9] Whom resist stedfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world. [10] But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect (complete) , stablish, strengthen, settle you.
To him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen.

My Regret

I deeply regret the family dynamics I created for my daughters. This is a poem about my regret.

When I look back to see, what I regret,
it's the void I gave my children, that one need that wasn't met.
That hurting in my soul, never ceases to ache,
because a mom's supposed to give, she's not supposed to take.
I thought I was having fun, and just filling a need,
but now it's so clear, it was nothing but greed.
And now after the fact, when I saw the consequences unfold,
I see what I've done, and grief I still hold.
I pray all the time, for my girls to be,
walking with the Lord, and smarter than me.
If I would have known, it would unfold like this,
I would have done thing's right, so a father they wouldn't miss.
But now I pray, with all of my heart,
they would have a complete family, not one that's torn apart.
I know I'm forgiven, my sins are taken away,
but there are consequences, that I still see to this day.
Please Lord, it wasn't their fault, I pray You would bring,
this dynamic to a halt.
Will You please let their families, reside with a mom and dad,
a dynamic I deprived them of, a dynamic they've never had.
And I pray they would love You, with all of their hearts,
and that You would bind their homes,
so it will never fall apart.

1 Corinthians 13:1-8
[1] Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal. [2] And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not charity, I am nothing. [3] And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing. [4] Charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, [5] Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; [6] Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; [7] Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. 8 Charity never faileth....

My prayer is that I will love better for the second half of my life!

I'm Not Strong

This poem is about perception. People have commented to me that I'm so strong. I shake my head in disagreement and say, "I'm not strong at all. I'm actually a very weak person that depends on the Lord." I'm not strong, I'm not bold, I'm a very weak person that depends on the Lord. I appear to be strong, that's a deception of me, hey come over here, I've got something for you to see. Do you see that person? That's me from the past, that's me at the end, that's shattered like glass. I had nothing to give, and was at the end of my rope, then Jesus said to me, "Let me give you some hope. Come to Me and repent of your ways, I'll be your God, for all of your days." My life didn't work, that was so clear to see, so I said to the Lord," I want to give You all of me." In my weakness, He made me  strong, because I turned to Him and repented from wrong. I think of my decisions from the past, to help me fight when temptations are cast. So that's why it appears, that I am so strong, when all I do is think of, consequences from wrongs. Then I take my weakness and trust what I'm told, then He gives me power, that makes me strong and bold. So remember it's the Lord who I seek, and who I go to when I'm weak. I'm not strong, I'm not bold, I'm a very weak person who depends on the Lord. 2 Corinthians 12:9 And he (Jesus) said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Ephesians 6:10 Finally , my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.

The Battle Of The Mind

There is no greater battle, than the battle of the mind,
it's the process that makes decisions, no stronger battle you will find.
When something comes up to challenge it, to try to kick it off it's post,
those are the battles I fight for, those battles I fight for most.
Everyone has this masterpiece, God's creation called the brain,
which is meant to function properly, not to drive a person insane.
How do we use it properly, what's it's original intent?
Well, let's look at the instructions, to see how it was meant.
Love the Lord your God, with all your heart, soul and mind, (Mark 12:30)this is the most important, in the instructions I could find.
Set your mind on the things above, (Colossians 3:2)this gives me perspective and helps me what to love.
Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought to think, (Romans 12:3)this gives me humility, where choosing pride would make me sink. (Proverbs 16:18)Bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, (2 Corinthians 10:5)this thwarts Satans plan, of having me diced.
Wow, there's so much more instruction, all I have to do is read,
my brain is meant to be used, on God's word it's meant to feed.
You could read somewhere else, God gave us freedom to roam,
but you will find it's God's word, that the brain will call it's home.
But there's something I'm so thankful for, something that's so kind,
the Lord took my depravity, the depravity of my mind (Romans 1:28)Through repentance and belief in Him, He has made me sane,
and now I have the mind of Christ, (1 Corinthians 2:16)which there is no greater gain.
Thank you so much Jesus, for giving me peace of mind,
there's no greater love I've found but you,
and I'm convinced I'll never find.


Romans 7:23-8:11[23] But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.
[24] O wretched man that I am! Who shall deliver me from the body of this death?
[25] I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.
[8:1] There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.[2] For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death.
[3] For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and for sin, condemned sin in the flesh.
[4] That the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, but they that are after the Spirit the things of the Spirit.
[5] For they that are after the flesh do mind the things of the flesh; but they that are after the Spirit the things of the Spirit[6] For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritual minded is life and peace.
[7 ]Because the carnal mind is enmity against God: for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be.
[8] So then they that are in the flesh cannot please God.
[9] But ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit, if so be that the Spirit of God dwell in you. Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his.
[10] And if Christ be in you, the body is dead because of sin; but the Spirit is life because of righteousness.
[11] But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you.

Don't Buy Pride

Pride is something that I never want! I pray all the time, that the Lord will do whatever it takes to make and keep me humble.

The last thing I want, is that monster called pride,
it's humility I desire, and who's welcome inside.
So when the doorbell rings, and pride's selling at my door,
I say, "No thanks mister, I've tried that product before."
When I put it on, it brings on shame,
it causes destruction, and it defames Gods name.
I'm ugly when it's on, and it smells of stench,
he says,"Your putting on too much, you only need a pinch."
I don't believe your deception, and there's something that I know,
that a little yeast, works through a whole batch of dough. (1 Corinthians 5:6)
I'd rather get humility, which gives God the glory,
than to put on pride, and to be like Satans story.
Satan bought pride, and then he fell, (Luke 10:18)
now he's missing out on heaven, and he's going to hell.
I don't want to be foolish, pride does nothing for me good,
I want things that bring honor, to my Lord as they should.
Your product is a deception, and I'm telling every friend,
that the pride that your selling, brings no honorable end.
I'm holding on to truth, and heeding Gods instruction,
that humility brings honor, and with pride comes destruction. (Proverbs 18:12)
So I'm asking you Lord, lest I be exalted above measure,
will you give me a thorn, that would give me some pressure.
It's humility I desire, and your exaltation that I seek,
and I know that your power, is made perfect when I'm weak.
I take pleasure in infirmities, for you never use it wrong,
for when I'm weak, then I am strong. (2 Corinthians 12:7-10)
It's you that I want, to be seen in my story,
and for you to be given, all of the glory. (Colossians 3:16-17 , John 17:20-26)

The Answer

This Poem I wrote is a picture of how God led me to surrender my life to Him. 

He kept putting people in my life and pursuing me for years. But I kept rejecting Him, wanting to live life my own way. 

Finally after many years 
I came at the end of myself and surrendered my life to Him. 

I'm so thankful I did!

I'm still thankful for His constant pursuit of me. Not for my salvation anymore,  but to help me in life and to help keep me on the right track. 

I'm so glad He does and never gives up on me!


THE ANSWER

I was all alone bleeding in the street. Then came some good Samaritans,
that God ordained for me to meet.

I let them bind my wounds, and listened what they had to say.

They said," We'll help you off the streets, and show you where gratitude is to be paid."

His name is Jesus, He's the master of our soul.
He came to us like you, when our life was taking a toll.

He cleaned up our wounds, and He said, "Trust me and let me in.
I will forgive you of your trespasses, but you must turn away from your sins".

We believed what He said, and from our sins we turned away.
And now we can go to heaven, and have no sins that we have to pay.

He said, "There's no good you can do, that can take away sin's dross.
The only way into My kingdom, is through what I did on the cross."

We were so thankful for what He did, we knew there was nothing we could do.
So we said, "We understand and accept salvation, that can only be met through You."

So we're passing on this news, that we felt certain you needed to know.
Please turn to our Savior, there's no greater love you'll know."

So I said, " Thank you for your words, and thanks for being so kind.
But I think I'll try a different path". So I left them and their wisdom behind.

I tried my own way again, and brought on some more pain.
Pain that caused destruction, not pain that causes gain.

I had fought so many rounds, I didn't  think I could take one more blow.
Just how far in the gutter I thought, did I really need to go?

Then I thought about what they said, and how their words had stirred my soul.
I realized what was holding me back. It was sins pleasures that I couldn't let go.

But now I see the fruits, of the sins that I let in.
The enjoyment just lasts a season I thought, it's a game I cannot win.

I am so convinced of that truth, that those people told me that day.
I now believe what you claim Jesus, that you are the life, the truth and the way. (John 14:6)

I'm so thankful for you Jesus, for patiently guiding my way.
And for Your kindness that led me to repentance, (Romans 2:4) and for those people you gave me that day.

John 3:16-21

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. 17 For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.

18 “He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. 19 And this is the condemnation, that the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil.20 For everyone practicing evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed. 21 But he who does the truth comes to the light, that his deeds may be clearly seen, that they have been done in God.”